like if he’s dead, we won’t find his body. there’s a million little crevices and hidey holes he could have crawled into and died. or coyotes could have dragged him off cause that’s happened before (not to me personally but i know people out here have lost dogs and cats to coyotes)

and if he’s alive then he won’t last much longer

like he’s basically gone and i’ve just given up hope. i lost a cat. i haven’t lost a cat in years and it never gets easier. and it’s even worse not knowing for certain where he is or what happened

@felinejaye he is an extremely skittish cat who runs away from everyone including me sometimes. he rarely gets outside but when he does it’s a crisis because he holes up and won’t come out until you physically see him and coax him out. which no one but me has been able to do. it’s an issue because we live out in the country where there’s lots of places for him to hide under.

i’m getting exhausted emotionally from looking for him and we haven’t seen him since friday night.

i don’t know how well he can get home because he doesn’t go outside so he doesn’t know the way. he just wanders until he finds a place to hide.

he’s just. a super skittish and anxious cat. even at home where he’s safe he rarely relaxes and he’s always sniffing around like someone’s out to get him. it breaks my heart because he’s the sweetest cat but he’s afraid of everything and that’s why i’m not holding out hope. he’s never been out this long

i haven’t seen my cat since he got out thursday and he’s not supposed to go outside and i basically have no purpose in life anymore and there’s no point in me doing anything ever again and i’ve decided i’m just going to give up

it’s becoming clear i’m not meant to accomplish anything. because every time something remotely good happens to me it’s overshadowed by something horrible happening. the world is very clear it doesn’t want me here