I know I make this post like once a week but it keeps coming back to me.

I just really don’t see a point anymore. It’s one thing to have talents (and I use that term loosely) but if I’m not using them for anything, then why bother?

I’ve never been published. Never even been in a zine. Never made money except from two commissions. I have no professional experience and at my age, that’s shameful.

I’ve never even held a job for more than a few months.

My excuse is “anxiety” and “autism” but everyone has anxiety and plenty of people with autism have jobs so it’s really not an excuse is it?

I try to be positive, I really do, but having hobbies is not a life. I need to have a job. Not for money, but to be useful.

Anyway, I just don’t see a purpose in anything anymore. I’ve already failed. I’m 25 and have nothing to show for it.